Wednesday afternoon

Since Tuesday morning things have been going well.  I am still wearing the chastity device.  I took it off for a short time last night to get a shower.  The lord was good to me last night my cell phone was almost dead so I could not look at any pornography.  So I just went to sleep.

I went up with the fire company today to show respect for the Vietnam mobile wall. That was something impressive (wall and motorcycles).  There was a state police car leading the 12 motorcycle honor guard and then the wall in boxes on a flat bed truck.  That was followed by about 500 motorcycles.  I stood at attention the whole time the motorcycles went by out of respect.  Many of the men on motorcycles saluted back at me. 

After I got back to work, I worked for a while and then needed a break so I started to some YouTube videos.  One came came up on my home page for a lingerie model and I watched it.  Then I watched several more.  I could not get hard and I could not masturbate. I just kept watching the videos.  Eventually I pulled my self away because I had to get back to work. :-(  I'm not sure why.

I hope I can spend some time with my wife tonight.  I need the together time.

Tuesday Morning

I was supposed to add an entry for each day since 7 Sept.  I forgot about that.  I will start today and try to do this every day.

Saturday was a bad day.  I could not get to sleep no matter what I tried.  My wife was up working on some projects for her students.  I was lonely and felt that I would not get to sleep if I didn't do something.  I go my phone out and I went to one of my past pron sites and watched s video.  then masturbated until orgasm. :-(

It always seems to make me sleepy.  Maybe because of the amount of energy it takes to orgasm.  Maybe because of the pattern I have gotten into.  I'm not sure.  I did fall asleep after that.

Sunday I Decided to try the chastity device again.  It is impossible to get an erection or masturbate with it on.  I have had it on since Sunday evening. It is working.  It seems to reduce my interest in any form of porn. 

I have not masturbated since Sunday night.  I did go to a porn site last night but since I could not get erect or masturbate I did not stay there very long.  I fell asleep bit on Sunday and Monday without any help.

I'll let you know tomorrow how things go.

My first entry

I have an issue with Pornography. I am going to use this blog to document my struggles and  successes.  This way I hope to help others who are going through the same struggle.